Cloudy With A Chance of Grace 

I cannot remember the last day I went for a run when it didn’t rain. Ireland is renowned for its beautiful green countryside but I mean really? Could we have one day when I can go out for a run and not come back looking like a drowned rat? At this rate I will turn green myself. Or at the very least develop webbed feet. Which is not a good look for a middle aged man training for a marathon in just under five weeks. 

I keep telling myself that this will benefit me long term as come race day I have to be prepared to go out and perform, whatever the weather conditions. I doubt the race organisers would take kindly to me asking them to reschedule were the heavens to open. Wet weather does have its benefits. It cools you down but try telling that to the bespectacled man setting out to run 26.2 miles without windscreen wipers. How I haven’t ended up in a ditch yet I do not know. 

So when the ‘Loop of the Lough’ Marathon comes around on 25 November I will have no excuses if I awaken to wet roads and grey skies. I will have to don my wet weather gear and dodge the puddles the best that I can. Failing that I will probably end up in the lough but I will give it my best shot anyway and will have no excuses.

Recently I have felt that it has been Fionnuala and I against the world. I won’t bore you with the details (as I’m seeking to be positive here) but it sometimes feels like once we overcome one obstacle there is another larger one in our path. It has been disheartening and frustrating. I pray about it but, at times, feel as distant from God as I have ever been. I ask him for wisdom and guidance but often feel as if we are fighting a losing battle.

I’ve lost a lot of friends this last year. This has been largely my own fault but I do feel let down all the same. I have trust issues and am struggling to make friends. Which is hugely hypocritical given the trusts I have betrayed in the past. I cling to God, Fionnuala and the kids as they are really I have. This initially deflated but then I realised that they are really all I need. All the more so as I so nearly lost them.

I am making a big effort to feel less sorry for myself in both my writing and thinking. Before I adopted this new approach a Taylor Swift song constantly resonated round my brain – I don’t trust nobody and nobody trusts me. Except I added an extra line – I don’t trust nobody and nobody trusts me….especially myself. I’m trying to move past that now because, otherwise, I am no good to my family. And I will never open up again to the possibility of new friendships.

I used to walk through life with a permanent rain cloud over my head. I truly was Mr. Doom and Gloom. The pity party was permanently raging in my head. And, just has been the case with my recent training runs, I was regularly soaked to the bone in sadness. I try to think of it differently now. I am still getting soaked but this time it is by the grace of God. Who drenches me on a daily basis. He has given me a loving family, a home, a job and a healthy body and mind allowing me to write and run.

I have a lot to be grateful for. Thank you God for raining on my parade. The grass is always greener or His Side.

Psalm 72:6 – ‘May He come down like rain upon the mown grass, like showers that water the earth.’

How was your day on a scale of 1-10?

Where are you today and what is the weather like?

Did God shower you with grace today?

Published by Fractured Faith Blog

We are Stephen and Fionnuala and this is our story. We live in Northern Ireland, have been married for 17 years and have three kids - Adam, Hannah and Rebecca. We hope that our story will inspire and encourage others. We have walked a rocky road yet here we are today, together and stronger than ever. We are far from perfect and our faith has been battered and bruised. But an untested faith is a pointless faith. Just as a fractured faith is better than none at all. We hope you enjoy the blog.

39 thoughts on “Cloudy With A Chance of Grace 

  1. I’m sure these obstacles are making you stronger in many different ways! It’s often hard during the trials but when you overcome them you can say, I did this, and it’s made me a stronger, more versed person! I enjoyed your post! Not a bad day here, just mundane work. It’s a learning experience though!

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  2. God abundantly pours out His grace on me every day whether I recognize it or not. His grace remains constant. It is me that doesn’t. That’s why it is called amazing grace. Shall we sing together now?! Amazing grace, how sweet the sound……

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          1. I didn’t measure distances unless I was on a treadmill unfortunately. I used to put weights in my backpack and run through the nearby trails. I run kind of like Phoebe from Friends if you’re familiar, so I kept off the popular paths lol


      1. Absolutely!! Everyday. Crack of dawn, 5 a.m. rain, sleet,snow or shine! Best way to start the day in my mind. I am not one of those who can alternate activities although they say we should… running for me is meditative and medicative!


  3. Great post as always. Friends will come and go but the Grace of God is everlasting. He will bring those in your life who should be there and take those out who shouldn’t be there. Real friends are there through thick and thin so if anyone has left because of tough times, it is time for them to go. Trusting isn’t an easy thing but with instinct and God’s leadership you will find the right friends for you. Blessings.

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  4. Well, it started off raining and dreary but turned into a beautiful sunny day! I am from Norfolk, VA. 🙂 I spent most of the day in doctors offices and the hospital visiting my mom so it wasn’t exactly the most glorious day, lol, but it wasn’t too bad!


  5. My day was pretty awesome, I somehow landed a sweet short term role and I have only God and his Angels to Thank, I really am truly grateful. I also was provided with something to write about, at first I thought it not ideal but now I know it will work out fine
    Great Post my friend

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  6. My mind has always drifted towards sadness because of my childhood. But now, when I have a negative thought, I try to immediately stop and then think of something good in my life. I’ve learned negative thoughts, of any kind, are a waste of time. This has taken me a long time to learn and implement, so be patient with yourself.

    Today was especially good, because I tried a new recipe and my husband and Mom liked it. Yipee! God knows how much I hate cooking, but he helps me with it all the time. His grace is what keeps me going!

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  7. I love this post. I feel the same some days. Since getting married and having my daughter a few years back losing friends was my life too. We’re moving forward with the blessings God has given us and the people around us were staying in the same place. I like to look at it that way and God will put people in our lives for only seasons then we move on to have others. Hopefully things get better for you. Seem like a great man of God!


  8. There were a couple of times in my life I was isolated by friends and family. I was able to talk to them on social media, but otherwise, it was just me and my husband. This was because we had moved to a new location, I don’t get out much. The first time lasted about 8 months till I met my first friend in my new location, and soon after the couple that hosted bible studies in their apartment while waiting for God to grant them a building to start church in. For me, it’s always during the times of isolation I feel God is saying, “How much are you willing to give to Me? How much do you truly trust Me?”

    Sometimes He grants me friends, like when I lived in Little Rock, but when I moved to Florida, that wasn’t the case. I’d like to think, even now having made no new friends where I live, that there’s a reason for this time. That God will help my focus and bring to light things I need to work on, I know He has started already. I pray He gives you an answer of clarity to help 🙂


  9. The weather is warm here, but then out of the blue, fall will arrive, and the temps will drop by ten degrees. In California, this is about as rough as it gets. 🙂

    Hang in there! The Lord is using your blog and your testimony to minister to many people. Keep trusting Him and focusing on gratitude and He’ll meet you where you are.

    As I mentioned on my blog yesterday, the lyrics to “Great Is Thy Faithfulness“ are very powerful. Remember: “Morning by morning, new mercies I see! All I have needed, Thy hand has provided; great is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me!”


  10. God has used 3 years of trials (details unnecessary- just know that I indeed lost my immediate family) and a thankfulness journal to learn to trust Him and to quote Job ” And he said: “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, And naked shall I return there. The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; Blessed be the name of the Lord.”

    He has good things in store for me. I COULD NOT believe that in my soul 3 years ago, but Praise His never ending loving kindness. I know it today as deeply as I know that I was born. All else is of no importance. May your journey toward Jesus continue to deepen.


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