CSI: You

Crime scenes can be fascinating but grisly locations. My work occasionally involves me attending them and experiencing the other side of the cordon. I’ve even had to wear those silly forensic oversuits, masks and gloves on occasion. It wasn’t my best fashion moment let me tell you. I resembled a giant, white Teletubby. My Tinky Winky was decidedly un rinky dinky! Here’s a tip as well should you ever find yourself in one (well you never know). If you bend over make sure you are wearing an undergarment. They tend to rip quite easily. You’re very welcome.

Crime scenes are frenetic, highly pressurised environments. Scientists, photographers, mappers and scenes of crime officers buzz around carrying out their various duties. They have to be painstakingly meticulous. The tiniest oversight can result in crucial evidence being overlooked. A hair, a speck of blood, a fingerprint. Attention to detail is paramount. Clues can be concealed anywhere and only the most highly trained mind can identify and decipher them. I tend to find myself at the eye of this storm. I direct, advise and consult. But when it comes to the technical, scientific stuff I take a step back and leave it to the boffins and geeks. For I am neither. Cos I am the coolest of albino Teletubbies.

You might pore over a crime scene for hours and see nothing. A highly qualified specialist can spend just a few moments working the scene and report back with observations and findings which will leave you standing slack jawed in astonishment. Piecing together what happened at any scene is a team effort. It requires a cast of many. I cannot be expected to do it on my own. I don’t have the necessary knowledge, experience and skills. I rely on others to paint a picture for me. I delegate and I listen. Failure to do so can be career suicide.

When all the pieces of the jigsaw are presented to me I can then begin to slot them together. This is where my analytical and interpretive skills come to the fore. I provide a strategic overview like a general surveying a battlefield far below him. I’m nowhere near as important as a general but you get my drift. Jigsaws can be frustrating and time consuming. But there is no better feeling than fixing those last few pieces into place and the picture finally merging into focus. It makes all the hard work beforehand worthwhile.

Life can be a bit like working a crime scene. Baffling and bloody in equal measure. Attempt to decipher it alone and you will soon find yourself in hot water. You will quickly become swamped and end up hopelessly out of your depth. You need others around you, people who you can rely upon. Experts who will guide you through the pitfalls and lead you to the truth which is often staring you right in the face. You cannot rush life’s trials just like you cannot rush a crime scene. It takes time and it requires teamwork.

I spent a good chunk of my life trying to do it on my own. Attempting to unlock the riddle locked inside a conundrum wrapped inside an enigma that was me. I never got very far and invariably blundered past the subtle signposts and discreet directions set out along the path I travelled. I have been clueless to the clues and oblivious to the obvious. Unable to make any sense of the evidence spread out before my weary eyes. Blinded by my own selfish and sinful needs. Unable to see the wood for the trees. Bogged down in a quagmire of self pity and negativity. Going nowhere fast. When the answers were staring me right in the face all along. My faith and my family. They were my solution. They were the magnifying glass that this Sherlock Holmes needed.

Crime scenes cannot be held forever. Eventually the cordon will be taken down and the various agencies will pack up their bags and head home. The cleaning agencies will scrub the streets clean and it will be as if nothing ever happened. Nothing to see here folks. Move along now people. You only get one chance at at crime scene. Time is precious. You need to process it as a team before the opportunity is lost forever. They call it the golden hour. One chance, don’t mess it up. No pressure. Just like life really. You get one chance.

Your life is like a crime scene. It is a living, breathing, messy puzzle and you are the detective called to unravel its secrets and decode its mysteries. You only get one shot at it so tread carefully. Examine every inch of it and from every possible angle. In minute, fine grain detail. Every crime scene examination is a search for the truth. The truth you have been searching for your entire life. Your purpose. Your meaning. Your calling. The tiniest grain of information could unlock the door to worlds and universes that you never knew existed before. The key to your life.

But don’t do it alone. Use the resources available to you. Those who know you better than you know yourself. I can’t tell you who these people are. They are your tribe, your inner circle. Allow them underneath the cordon tape and into your confidence. Show them the beautiful mess that you are. Allow them to sift through the debris and help you piece together the jigsaw that reveals your purpose and destiny. Let them help you for you cannot do it alone. You must not do it alone. For before you know it the scene will be lost and the secret treasures of your being will be blown away into the night never to return. You will be unable to find the message in your mess.

Standing alone and confused on a dark, damp street. In an ill fitting Teletubby costume. Not knowing who you are nor why you are here. Now that would be a crime.

How are you getting on at working your crime scene?

Who are your tribe? Do you allow them under the cordon?

Is there a message hidden in your mess?

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  1. Wow, Stephen. Thanks for giving us a peek into your professional life. It sounds fascinating, especially the way you apply it to life in general. My own crime scene, which I’ve been processing for nearly half my life now, hasn’t been solved. I’ve had many leads, some of which have come to fruition, and others which have led nowhere. My “squad” includes my husband and my therapist, and my psychiatrist, too. Each contributes a different piece to the puzzle that may take a lifetime to solve. I’m trying to cultivate patience.

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  2. I am one of those people that likes to analyze everything and ask why. Some call it “analysis paralysis”. But I think that’s what made me a good special education teacher. Sometimes something we don’t like about ourself is really a gift. Yes, life is a puzzle, but the older I get, the less it is so. Love your blog!

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  3. Very well-written and thought-provoking; thank you.

    It is a novel way to approach my past. I love grappling with new perspectives that I can apply to my healing.
    I read an article earlier today (investigating and challenging the generally accepted stance of depression/anxiety being due to brain chemistry, and looking at the role of living a meaningful life as a natural anti-depressant), which your post reminds me of as well.
    Looking at ourselves as mysteries to solve; knowing when to trust our expertise and when we need help; paying close attention to the clues – these are gentle affirmations for where I’m at. Thank you for sharing your perspective.


  4. Agree with others, what a great post. Not only to read about your job but yes, how you’ve analyzed it into life. I’m always on an ‘exploration’ of my own life, sadly not quite happy with how my legacy will be seen/read, but thrilled to always learn more. Thank you for the perusal of my blog, you have a new fan here! If you ever come to the Seattle, you’ve got a friendly face (Southern part of me) who will happily show you my explorations here!
    Look forward to continuing reading.

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  5. Great post i did not realise your job took you to that side of the cordon as you say. Very insightful. As someone who works in fashion i do not think anyone looks flattering in those white forensic suits.
    I love this part answering your questions you pose.
    My crime scene is a mess at the moment it requires a lot of digging and work to get it all clear and to find motives etc………
    No tribe as such for me, there are a few people who i can count on one hand that i sometimes let slip under the cordon. I have said before i am very distrusting of people these days. I am very afraid also to let these people to near as i may let them down just like i have let others down in my life………
    I think the hidden message in my mess is HELP, I AM STRUGGLING, I AM LONELY. Wow!!! I think that is first time i have ever written that down!!!!!!!! Sorry

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