You let me binge
And now I’m singed
Unhinged.
Swinging from the gallows that I constructed for
You.
As you look on
The idle god of all you survey.
You smile
As I decay
Dismayed and flayed.
Splayed in my grave
Of rotating routine.
Ode To OCD #1
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Black Thoughts 
I hear this. Have you ever heard of the scrupulosity?
OCD intrusive thoughts are proof, if you will, that the devil is a liar.
thank you for sharing this.
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No I haven’t. What is that?
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I don’t know if it’s in the DSM, but it’s basically a form of OCD driven by a feeling of moral or religious obligation that goes far beyond typical desires to be virtuous. I have started to wonder if it wasn’t well-known to the scribes and Pharisees.
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I’ll have to check that out. Yeah that would make sense.
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OCD eats away at you slowly until you feel like it controls all you do. It’s a liar that works with the enemy to attack you from within your own mind – playing tricks. Thanks for posting this.
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Of course it is. Part of my online profile is to promote the realities of OCD.
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This is a stark poem. Really emotive. I love your use of assonance! Great internal rhymes going on.
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Thank you. That’s great feedback and much appreciated.
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Powerful poem. Really helps me to understand.
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I’m glad it has. Thank you.
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That was really good! I think it’s the first time I saw an actual poem dedicated to OCDS. It’s always overlooked a lot but your poem says it all. Great job!
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Thank you. I’m hoping I can promote greater awareness of it through my writing.
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You will! Keep up the good work!
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that was a great poem loved it such emotion in it xox
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Thank you. Glad you liked it.
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Wonderfully raw and emotional poem. No end to your talents Stephen
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I have a small group on Facebook for scrupulosity or religious OCD. It is a safe place for support. Here is the link. https://www.facebook.com/groups/936955926382336/
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Thank you.
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