I’m A Christian But I’m Not Reading The Bible

Whenever I’ve asked people to describe my writing style the most frequent word I hear is ‘honesty’. For someone who had led such a dishonest existence for many years this is music to my years. So, in continuing my tradition of transparency and accountability, here’s another truth bomb for you all to chew on.

I’m a Christian and I haven’t read my Bible in weeks….

I know, I know. An outrageous admission. And here’s the thing. I love reading. My Kindle Fire is like an extra limb to me. I’ve always got a book on the go, sometimes two. I can’t sleep at night unless I’ve read at least a few pages. I’m a self confessed bookworm. Loud and proud. Yet when it comes to the most important book of them all, I’ve been left cold of late.

Even stranger is that for all the years I’ve been a Christian (five in May fact fans) I’ve always had a very healthy relationship with the Bible. I’ve read it regularly and thrived on the vivid story telling, imagery and themes within its pages. At our last church I led a youth group and house group where I regularly led Bible related discussions. I was even asked by the pastor to deliver sermons at the Sunday service. People said I had a gift of interpretation, of analysing the text and drawing fresh learning from it that others could not see.

But of late there’s been nothing. Nada. Zilch. My Bibles (for I have several) have sat on the bookshelf gathering dust. NIV, The Message, NKJV, I’ve tried them all but there hasn’t been a spark. I’ve tried The Gospels, Proverbs, Psalms and even Job. Yes Job! That’s how desperate I am! But all to no avail. They’ve just been words. Words that I’ve read a hundred times before. No passion, no startling revelations, no Charlton Hestonesque bolts of lightning from above. It’s as if the Holy Spirit has upped sticks and gone on an early Easter vacation.

Initially I thought I just needed a break. Was it burnout? Or perhaps the novel I am working on was draining my creative juices? Was it because I’m not a member of a church anymore? Was God punishing me for turning my back on ‘the church’? I haven’t a clue but whatever the reason it’s certainly been effective. And do you know what’s worst of all? I don’t feel particularly guilty, ashamed or bothered. I still regard myself as a Christian, I still believe in God, I still try to lead a good life, I still pray. Check, Check and double Check.

Is that enough? Can you still continue to function as a card carrying Christian without a church and without a Bible? Is Saint Peter presently scribbling furiously in the ‘negatives’ column of his big book as I type this. Is Satan (for I also still believe in him) rubbing his hands gleefully and notifying Hell Airlines to book me a one way ticket with immediate effect? I honestly don’t know (there’s that word again). But I woke up this morning with an urge to write about it and share it with you all. So here I am.

We pride ourselves on the fact that Christians, Muslims and people of many other faiths read this blog. We even have a healthy smattering of agnostics and atheists. We welcome them all. This is not an exclusively Christian blog. It is a blog written by Christians who have doubts and concerns about their faith; hence its name. We are not perfect and we tell it how it is. The Christian life is not all happy clappy (more snappy crappy) ever after as many would want you to believe. It is frustrating, infuriating and full of pain and rejection. Don’t believe me. Just ask Jesus about his three year ministry on the planet.

So I am where I am. Honest but hanging on to my fractured faith for all I’m worth. I hope this is just a blip and I will fall in love with my Bible again in the not too distant future. Maybe God is giving me a mini vacation before the real work begins, just over the horizon. I’m sure I will find out soon enough. Until then I’ll stare at my Bibles on the bookshelf and they will stare back at me. A war of attrition with no end in sight at present. But I won’t throw them out or hide them away in a drawer. And at least that’s something. They are part of me and I am part of them. We’re just having a break from each other.

How often do you read the Bible?

Or have you never picked one up before?

Do you read other books of faith?

Whatever your thoughts I’d be interested to hear them?

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  1. “The Christian life is not all happy clappy (more snappy crappy) ever after as many would want you to believe. It is frustrating, infuriating and full of pain and rejection. Don’t believe me. Just ask Jesus about his three year ministry on the planet.”

    I have often wondered where this idea comes from when the Founder of Christianity was crucified. I am more than certain there was nothing happy about that.

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  2. Great post and thanks for being transparent. I hear people say they don’t read the Bible like they should, so you are not alone. Sometimes we just need a scripture to get us started. Also try reading a study application Bible. One thing I know for sure is there is no timetable, you can take your time, read at your own pace and build your personal relationship with our Lord and Savior.

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  3. I admit it, I don’t read it as much as I should (need). But we must (regardless of ourselves) encourage others to hear the Word. We must study to shew ourselves approved of God. There’s life in His Word. We will one day be held accountable- Prov 4:22 “For they are life unto those that find them, and health to all their flesh.” HOW CAN WE PREACH UNLESS WE KNOW THE WORD? 2 Tim 4:2 Preach the word; be instant in season, out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort with all longsuffering and doctrine.” We have to keep the Word in us, for the thief comes to take away the Word sown…we may be Christians, but without the Word, our hearts become hardened to the things of God. There is an old saying that ‘a wore out Bible belongs to a Christian who’s not” 🙂 We need to be ready to answer every man!

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  4. Thank you Thank You Thank You!! I have not read my Bible in months and yet, just like you, I love reading more then life itself!! I don’t know why I’m not motivated. I go to church, go through the motions, but it doesn’t seem to have that much of an impact any longer. I feel like I must be a defective Christian. So thanks for letting me know I’m not alone and maybe not as defective as I thought!

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  5. There have been times in my life I’ve neglected to read my Bible. For me, it was usually life getting in the way. Many times I get a strong message, but I don’t get a huge personal revelation every single time I read. Yet I know it is useful and needful. I do tend to get easily distracted and sometimes forget to refocus on the Bible and make reading it a priority.

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  6. I envy writers who can read the Bible and then quote it. The television series “Hard Sun” episode 3 is called Luke 21:25. Regardless of what people believe about the quality of that television series itself, a title like that is very provocative, and yes, I ended up going and grabbing the Bible to read the passage, and all the relevant ones around it, to put it into better context. In my opinion, good writers are made by reading a lot of just about everything. 🙂

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  7. I usually read it from every day to several times a week. It depends on my writing. Since I’m a Christian writer, there are times I put the Bible aside to finish another book, then pick it up again. I love reading it. It always sparks for me. God bless.

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  8. Thanks for being honest. My Bible is my constant friend but yes, there’s also days that I ask myself how did I miss my favourite hour with my Lord and His Word. I guess being prompted is a sign that it does mean someting to us but with the busyness of our life we can often think it’s the least of our concern…but is it.

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  9. Hey..liked your post. I am not a Christian, so I am perhaps not the right person to comment on whether or not you should read the Bible. Being a Hindu, we have our own holy books but I have never read them (Ooops!) I never had the inclination to. I have my faith in a greater presence and I don’t think I need to read Holy books to retain my faith.

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  10. I don’t read the Bible very often. As a queer woman who grew up Evangelical, the Bible was used as a weapon against me SO MANY TIMES that I find it emotionally difficult to contend with. I do better with The Message version, since it’s so unlike what I read growing up. But lately, A Course in Miracles has spoken to me more than the Bible. 10 years ago it was Conversations with God that really connect me to my faith. And even before that it was The Last Temptation of Christ. (Blasphemy!) Seriously, that novel transformed the way I saw Jesus & my faith. Amazing stuff. Right now, my Bibles are exceptionally dusty. My faith, though, is just fine. ❤

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  11. Honestly, some branches of the Christian family put a lot less emphasis on the devotional reading of the Bible than Protestants do: Catholics and Orthodox do less of it. So I don’t think it’s at all bad to take a break now and then, particularly since you clearly already know the scriptures well. I have depression and a chronic fatigue issue that makes it difficult for me to focus on things I’m not super interested in, so for the last couple of years, I haven’t been reading my Bible for my devotions: I’ve been reading other things, like “Streams in the Desert,” Daily Bread, and “Blessed are the Misfits” (which is fantastic!). I think it’s important to keep up your relationship with God daily, but that doesn’t always have to look like reading the Bible and having a specific prayer time.

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  12. I’m glad it’s not just me, some days are a bigger struggle than others and sometimes I lose that fight. One of my prayer points is always about this but it hasn’t gotten any easier. I don’t know why. When you get a breakthrough, keep us informed.

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  13. Interesting. There are times when Satan will condemn us when we don’t read the bible. I went thru a very dry season and wrote this poem and hope it helps you to know that many Christians have been where you are and have come out the other side.

    Wanderings
    By Natalie Lynn Hidalgo

    I have wandered from your word
    I have lost the lamp that lights my way
    Darkness seeps in like fog, swirling, deceiving,
    Offering confusion and doubt.
    Your Holy Spirit within me is Restless…
    Like a caged Panther… pacing back and forth,
    He offers no peace.

    I have wandered from your word
    Away from your springs of living water,
    To a dry and barren land of desolation;
    Fallow ground that knows no rain.
    Your Holy Spirit within me thirst, hungers,
    Rumbles, growls and pacing back and forth
    He gives me no comfort.

    I have wandered from your word.
    Depression, anger and temptations surround me.
    The joy of my salvation flees…just beyond reach
    Hunger and longing consume me
    The Holy Spirit within me moves, stirs…grieves.
    And in grieving,
    He offers me Grace.

    Amazing Grace, like a lifeline reaching.
    Grips my heart and trips my feet.
    I fall; my tears mingle with the dust of my wanderings.
    Word of God…I call, I fall on your grace.
    Wash me in your springs of living water.
    Your Holy Spirit within me sanctifies.
    Embracing me… He gives me peace.

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      1. Often when we are in a place where someone or thing falls off a pedestal we can find our walk with Christ suffer. The Lord will topple all things that come before him in our lives,. I hope that you do not give the enemy a footing for long. He knows that the longer you refuse the Word and fellowship the weaker you become. His strategy is to isolate you and make us all ineffective for the Kingdom. I have been there. I sat on the fence and the bench for a decade that I will never get back where I nursed my wounds and justified myself. One day the Lord showed me that I was right where Satan wanted me. Not in the game, not doing any real thing for the kingdom. I was not effective and not used for His glory for a reason. That was my time of ignoring the Word when it called me to read. I pray this is not the same for you. I hope you find Godly fellowship and perhaps you can start back in psalms and see if your appetite increases.

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