I’m A Christian But I’m Not Reading The Bible

Whenever I’ve asked people to describe my writing style the most frequent word I hear is ‘honesty’. For someone who had led such a dishonest existence for many years this is music to my years. So, in continuing my tradition of transparency and accountability, here’s another truth bomb for you all to chew on.

I’m a Christian and I haven’t read my Bible in weeks….

I know, I know. An outrageous admission. And here’s the thing. I love reading. My Kindle Fire is like an extra limb to me. I’ve always got a book on the go, sometimes two. I can’t sleep at night unless I’ve read at least a few pages. I’m a self confessed bookworm. Loud and proud. Yet when it comes to the most important book of them all, I’ve been left cold of late.

Even stranger is that for all the years I’ve been a Christian (five in May fact fans) I’ve always had a very healthy relationship with the Bible. I’ve read it regularly and thrived on the vivid story telling, imagery and themes within its pages. At our last church I led a youth group and house group where I regularly led Bible related discussions. I was even asked by the pastor to deliver sermons at the Sunday service. People said I had a gift of interpretation, of analysing the text and drawing fresh learning from it that others could not see.

But of late there’s been nothing. Nada. Zilch. My Bibles (for I have several) have sat on the bookshelf gathering dust. NIV, The Message, NKJV, I’ve tried them all but there hasn’t been a spark. I’ve tried The Gospels, Proverbs, Psalms and even Job. Yes Job! That’s how desperate I am! But all to no avail. They’ve just been words. Words that I’ve read a hundred times before. No passion, no startling revelations, no Charlton Hestonesque bolts of lightning from above. It’s as if the Holy Spirit has upped sticks and gone on an early Easter vacation.

Initially I thought I just needed a break. Was it burnout? Or perhaps the novel I am working on was draining my creative juices? Was it because I’m not a member of a church anymore? Was God punishing me for turning my back on ‘the church’? I haven’t a clue but whatever the reason it’s certainly been effective. And do you know what’s worst of all? I don’t feel particularly guilty, ashamed or bothered. I still regard myself as a Christian, I still believe in God, I still try to lead a good life, I still pray. Check, Check and double Check.

Is that enough? Can you still continue to function as a card carrying Christian without a church and without a Bible? Is Saint Peter presently scribbling furiously in the ‘negatives’ column of his big book as I type this. Is Satan (for I also still believe in him) rubbing his hands gleefully and notifying Hell Airlines to book me a one way ticket with immediate effect? I honestly don’t know (there’s that word again). But I woke up this morning with an urge to write about it and share it with you all. So here I am.

We pride ourselves on the fact that Christians, Muslims and people of many other faiths read this blog. We even have a healthy smattering of agnostics and atheists. We welcome them all. This is not an exclusively Christian blog. It is a blog written by Christians who have doubts and concerns about their faith; hence its name. We are not perfect and we tell it how it is. The Christian life is not all happy clappy (more snappy crappy) ever after as many would want you to believe. It is frustrating, infuriating and full of pain and rejection. Don’t believe me. Just ask Jesus about his three year ministry on the planet.

So I am where I am. Honest but hanging on to my fractured faith for all I’m worth. I hope this is just a blip and I will fall in love with my Bible again in the not too distant future. Maybe God is giving me a mini vacation before the real work begins, just over the horizon. I’m sure I will find out soon enough. Until then I’ll stare at my Bibles on the bookshelf and they will stare back at me. A war of attrition with no end in sight at present. But I won’t throw them out or hide them away in a drawer. And at least that’s something. They are part of me and I am part of them. We’re just having a break from each other.

How often do you read the Bible?

Or have you never picked one up before?

Do you read other books of faith?

Whatever your thoughts I’d be interested to hear them?

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  1. I actually just read an interesting article yesterday about reading my Bible more often. I’m a self proclaimed Christian who is still searching for the church that fits my personality. I’m a Christian who has walked away from the church and searched tirelessly to find one many years later that I could fall in love with because I was in so much pain and so lost. I’ve never read the Book cover to cover and I will probably always have doubts and questions. But one thing that will never leave my heart, soul and head is my connection with God.

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  2. We all go through dry spells. Bible study at church and a local study group keep me in the Word. I subscribe to blogs that focus on scripture and reflection – the basis for my morning journaling. I enjoy the coincidences, juxtapositions, and synergies… a former student calls them “God winks.”

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  3. Another great, open, and baring blog post! I think everyone goes through these spells where our favorite bible sits there taunting us to read it and we play like we don’t see it. As you so well put it, we try to lead good, honest lives, living the word but can’t seem to pick up The Word. I believe that God uses even these spells to grow us. One day something will bring you to seek out, dust off and hungrily gather the words up, tasting them like you have never tasted anything so nourishing and sweet before. Look forward to it, expect it and thank God that it will be there for you when you do.

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  4. WWJD. When in doubt, I go to the source of life. Sometimes, I don’t “feel ” like breathing but the consequences are too compelling. As always 😍 the choice remains yours.

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  5. As always Steven, your openness and honesty are refreshing. I too count myself a avid reader, though I still do it old-school (I don’t have a Kindle). Currently I’m reading three books, one ministry related, another on preaching and the third on the invasion of Sicily and Italy in WWII.

    As a preacher, my counsel is for everyone to spend time with their bibles each day. For those who honestly tell me that they are not, I gently remind them of the Author. He is worth reading daily!

    However, I also encourage folks to actively read the Scriptures; meaning to think about and pray over what you read. Simply reading it to check a box on a yearly reading plan is quite a bit off target. When talking with someone who tells me they just aren’t getting anything out of reading their bible I usually ask why and encourage them to remember a time when it was richly rewarding to engage the Scriptures. What is different now? The answer usually lies with us!

    As followers of Christ we have the opportunity to get to know Him more deeply by reading the Word of God. The time I spend alone with God and the bible is what charges me up for each day, giving me the direction, encouragement and correction I often need!

    Continued blessings on you,
    Chuck

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    1. What is the name of the book on the invasion of Sicily and Italy in WWII, please? My wife and I just toured Sicily and visited the museum in Catania dedicated to that campaign. Absolutely fascinating chapter of history.

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      1. Hello. The book is The Day of Battle written by Rick Atkinson. It is the second of his WWII trilogy. The other two are the North Africa campaign and the war in Western Europe 1944-45. They are well written and meticulously researched.

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  6. Do you remember what you said to me the other day? You said, “It will come. Just be patient.” And you were right and although it came in fits and starts and wasn’t awfully well done, you were spot on. I strongly suspect that the same will happen to you. ☀️☀️

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  7. If I must be honest you’re not alone. I don’t read my bible as much as I should. It seems that part of my me get pushed by the wayside. Do I feel guilty, I do. I promise I will do better and sometimes I do but find myself slipping again. It has nothing to do with my belief or being a Christian but it is my reality. Super post!!!

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  8. I enjoyed reading this very much. I don’t believe in God the way I used to (what a way to avoid saying whether or not I am a Christian!), yet I have periods, such as three years ago, when I read the Bible every day (I started my day with Job – along with very strong coffee!). To me, your honesty seems part of your writing style. Well done.

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  9. I read the whole Bible cover to cover. I found that I had more questions than answers on my journey through. I wholeheartedly believe even when I don’t feel like I do. I am even planning on getting my first tattoo of a cross on my back. It is hard to find the motivation to reread the Bible after reading it already. I want to read the Koran and Mormon Bible. They are not at the top of my list. I thought I had better read my own holy book first. I don’t blog that much about my faith like you do. Hats off to you for that. I was taught to avoid conversations about politics and religion, but I am not generally opposed to doing so.Honesty is always the best policy, even if it is not always a popular one. Keep up the great writing!!

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    1. I’ve tried the Koran a few times and have found it slow going. I need to be in “the mood” when I tackle that one. On the other hand, The Book of Mormon (which Latter-day Saints do not consider to be a “Bible”) is more approachable, in the way it traces the religious and secular histories of a few groups of ancient people, from their origins in the Holy Land through their world migrations and the evolution of their faith, in a path which roughly parallels the general development of Christianity from the Abrahamic tradition through a period similar to what today is called Messianic Judaism.

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      1. Very good insight. I thought I would’ve probably got a lot more out of reading the Bible if I understood more about ancient history, geography, and had maps. I would suggest that for any lay person wishing to plunge into such a challenging endeavor. I think it would have helped me understand more about what I was reading. I should’ve created a chart. I wish someone would have given me that advice ahead of time. But I know so few people who have actually read the Bible from cover to cover. And if they did, most have not read other holy books. Wonderful info Christine!!

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        1. Reading the Bible from cover to cover can be daunting, because a study of its history shows it’s not really a unified whole, but a compilation that gained, changed, or lost material as its constituent books were first individually published, then collected, translated, re-published, re-translated, and re-published again and again over the past two thousand years, often making parts of it difficult to reconcile or hard to understand. The fact that not all editions of the Bible contain the Apocrypha provides evidence of its evolution. Irish monks were instrumental in this process: with their working in primitive scriptoria all over Europe, it was inevitable that transcription variations would occur, but we have them to thank that we have the Bible at all.

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        2. Sometimes newer printings of the Bible have appendices that include a concordance, definitions, and/or maps. There are also a great many interesting books from secular publishers, such as the old “Great People of the Bible and How They Lived,” by Reader’s Digest (available at online used book retailers and by digital loan from the library of the Internet Archive). Another good place to find the kind of assistance you suggest is the website of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (https://www.lds.org/scriptures/study-helps?lang=eng), where they’ve posted links to a Bible Dictionary, a Bible Chronology chart, a Harmony of the Gospels chart, Bible Maps, and Bible Photographs. Other churches may maintain similar kinds of web pages.

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          1. That’s very interesting and helpful information. But I probably won’t be reading the whole Bible again anytime soon. But it would be good information to pass along. I wish I knew about it before I started. 😀

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        3. Creating a chart when studying the Bible is something I’ve done. I did one when I read the Revelation of St. John the Divine, because I’d heard people in adult Sunday School classes complain about how confusing that book was. As I studied and summarized the chapters, I saw that St. John follows the pattern of “tell them what you’re going to tell them, then tell them, and then tell them what you told them.” Relationships between the chapters are indicated by their placement and background shading. Here’s a link to an image of my chart: https://wp.me/a30cCH-2Qa (to enlarge it, click on “Full size is 3300 × 2550 pixels” at the top of the page).

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  10. I’ve read the Scriptures often enough over the past forty years that now I tend to get sleepy when I read them. Of course, there can be no better way to read oneself to sleep than to have the word of God in mind when drifting off! 🙂 But a few years ago, when I wanted to read the whole thing and make sure I didn’t miss a word, I read it back-to-front. That helped me stay alert and pay attention to details. I’ve also studied bits that are translated into foreign languages, and picked up some new insights that way. As far as reading other books of faith is concerned, The Book of Mormon is a good place to start.

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  11. I fall on this list as well. I don’t read my Bible daily, and besides a few bible verse searches I haven’t read a whole chapter in maybe 2 or 3 weeks. I don’t think it’s a good thing, and I am not great at this discipline in particular. Praying that the Spirit will fill us with a new desire for His Word this week.

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  12. When I feel sluggish about reading the Bible I pick one of my favorite Psalms and not just read but pray it every day. It centers me. Remember the saints had similar problems called “the dark night of the soul” although theirs sometimes included a period of feeling God distant or absent. There are some wonderful books about the Bible but without knowing your particular bent I am hesitant to suggest some. However, you may enjoy some fun reading. Whistling in the Dark by Frederick Buechner. A little book with a lot of wisdom.

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  13. I do so appreciate your honesty. I’ve been a Christian for 47 years, and like you, I’ve found that I don’t always find my time in Scripture to be filled with some exciting, new insight. Sometimes, yes. But other times, no. So I totally get what you are saying, and sympathize. It’s tough to spend time in the desert, much like Moses did, feeding the stinky sheep. In other words, even when we walk with God, things aren’t always “exciting and new.” But then, neither is my marriage. And I do a lot of things to nurture that relationship even when I’m tired or uninspired. That’s what I do because I love…sometimes the feelings are strong… sometimes, life just saps my strength and I’m tired.

    Yet, to make a relationship successful, we simply need to remain faithful… to keep finding ways to nurture it… even if those ways are seemingly small tokens of our love. And that, my friend, seems to be what you are doing in your relationship with God… Hanging tough even when you feel uninspired. So, good for you! And yes, we might not always feel starry-eyed… but as we stick with Christ, a depth in our relationship develops just as a long life lived with one’s spouse often yields a love that is different than the love that led you to marry, and yet, that new love is equally precious.

    I think of an elderly couple walking together in a park, holding hands. Are there the sparks that flew when they were teens? Perhaps, sometimes, but often ,probably not. But there is a quiet, committed, genuine appreciation and deep love that can only come after facing a great many obstacles and hardships as well as joys together. That’s been my experience anyway.

    Indeed, there is an ebb and flow in marriage…that’s the nature of being human. We cannot maintain a continual emotional high. And I suspect that’s why we experience similar things in our relationship with God.

    You also know that with training for long distance runs you don’t always feel like getting out to run everyday. Yet, you are committed and do it despite how you feel. I like to think of my relationship with God like a long-distance run… I’m in it for the long haul… and there is a peace and joy that comes just by sticking with it… am I making any sense? I you probably understand what I’m trying to say because from what I know of you through your wonderful blog, you hold tightly to your faith… despite sometimes feeling a bit “fractured.” 🙂 🙂

    All that being said, when I hit a wall in my reading, I return to some of my favorite books–Romans, Philippians, Psalms, and Proverbs. Sorry for the treatise… er… long comment. You just really got me thinking 😉 😉 Love your blog!! And I love that you are so willing to be transparent with all of us. You truly encourage us with your genuine faith! 🙂

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      1. Heb 11:6 says that those who seek God face (so if we seek then we should seek until we find, it is our responsibility to find him in prayer and studying the Bible as the letter is written to Christians. The scripture says that we must believe that he Is and he will reward us, meaning experiencing him and Have revelations from His word.

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  14. I appreciate your honesty. I read the Bible regularly, but not as often or as deeply as I should. When I find my Bible reading time dry and unproductive, I have to ask myself some questions. The first is whether or not there is some unconfessed sin or something in my life that I’m holding onto tighter than I’m holding onto God. Second is whether I’m taking the time to listen when I read. Third is whether or not I’m spending time in prayer and praise before read, getting the distractions out and focusing my heart on God.
    It’s also good to remember, there aren’t always epiphanies. Sometimes it’s just little reminders to hold onto those things we’ve already heard. And no, you don’t have to read your Bible or go to church to be a Christian. But it’s kind of like being a person. I don’t have to eat a balanced diet, but I’m a lot healthier, more productive, and less susceptible to illness if I do (physically, mentally, and emotionally). The same is true with scripture and church. Feeding myself with the good spiritual foods God has provided helps me be healthier, more productive, and less susceptible to temptation/sin.

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      1. I hope and pray you know I was not judging or accusing. I was being genuinely honest about what I do when I’m in the same boat. Because, even as a pastor’s wife, I find times when I just don’t feel close to God or when the last thing I feel like doing is being around other believers. I have times when I read the Bible, and I get no new insights or even a feeling of closeness to God from what I’ve read. I also fail miserably on the different questions at various times. That’s why I have to ask myself the questions in the first place! Though it might not have seemed that way, I answered from a place of understanding not condemnation.

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  15. May be what you need to donis change your style of reading the Bible. You could just pick a topic and research about in the Bible, you could read chronologically, you could read by studying certain characters. I also have days I just don’t feel like reading the Bible and some days I let it be until someone told that we need to be unconditional and that we shouldn’t just wait to feel like reading the Bible

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  16. I believe as long as you believe , pray and most important you are a good person I wouldn’t worry I am a Christian but do not go to church use to all the time sadly it’s lazyness but I believe pray every night and try to be a good person . So no worries .

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  17. As others have commented before me, thank you for your honesty! imho, it’s a plague of Western Christianity that we have such access to the Bible but fail to recognise our privilidge, much less cherish it as we ought. I’m another who may go days or weeks without reading my bible, and I’m ashamed to say, have never read it cover to cover, despite being a Christian since I was nine. That said, hit a road block or bigger obstacle and I will likely turn to a psalm for encouragement, comfort and peace.

    I’m still trying today to memorise verses, as I was encouraged to as a child, and sometime use an app for this purpose called ‘Remember Me’. I’ve also found Audio Bibles immensly helpful as I struggle to concentrate on the written word.

    Continuing to pray for you all as a family.

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  18. I hear you, Stephen. A thought:

    Have you considered a children’s Bible? In particular, the Jesus Storybook Bible is EXCELLENT (an enjoyable read even as a grownup), and has some cheerful illustrations, too. A friend gave it to me as a gift a couple of years ago, and I recently shared it with someone else. It’s a treasure!

    Here is a link for more information if you are interested:

    The Jesus Storybook Bible: Every Story Whispers His Name

    Be blessed! ✝️

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      1. By the way, perhaps the reason that the Bible is not speaking to you at this time is because your mindset is oriented toward storytelling (with your book and all). While the Bible is also a book, it is not written in this format. That is why I suggested the Storybook Bible, as it carefully weaves the stories from Genesis to Revelation in more of a linear, narrative format. However, I understand that it’s not for you.

        For what it’s worth, I listen to the Bible through an app as I stretch each morning. I process information differently that way – auditorily – and then use my traditional Bible for my study times.

        Hang in there! Have a good day.

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  19. I have been struggling in this area lately too. In fact, I just wrote a post about it (it will post in a few hours.) One thing that helps me when I’m not exactly sure where to look in the Bible, is to find a devotional book based on a subject that I feel I’m struggling with at the moment. As you can guess….I have plenty options to chose from! ha Most of mine are about motherhood and military life. It helps me know where to dig in and find the words I am needing in that moment. Great post!

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  20. Your honesty is really encouraging. I’ve been where you are! Here are two things I’ve tried recently which have helped me: 1) listening to the Bible instead of reading. (David Suchet’s recording of the entire Bible. His reading of the Psalms is phenomenal.) 2) Free writing about a few verses at a time using 750words.com. This almost always provides new insight about passages I thought were “old hat.” Thank you for blogging!

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  21. I agree with you in that love of reading the Bible, but at the same time feeling “drained”. I am currently reading my Bible as my church and I do a Bible Challenge through the Bew Testament.

    However, there have been times where I have stopped reading the Bible and it has hurt me spiritually. My mother once said that isolation and removal from the Bible can be used as a weapon by Satan.

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  22. I have periods of time where I am in my Bible daily and then…. DRY SPELL!!! Similar to God’s Warrior comment… there is a spiritual battle going on that I can’t see. When I am not “feeding” on the Word of God everyday… it gives the enemy an opening to get in and wreak havoc! People close to me often say they can tell a difference in me when I have and haven’t spent time in the Word.

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  23. I think reading the Bible out of requirement…well that’s religious, a routine, a belief reflected that our “works” get us into Heaven, which isn’t true. However, scripture goes beyond this. I think we should read not only for the reasons of why we should, not just revelation, but equipping our spirit to fight against darkness and things that hinder us (through meditation in prayer and memorizing, you don’t have to gain anything extra from this), to know the history and be secure in it, to be ready when other Christians or someone has questions. We are accountable and we have a responsibility to grow. Not only in new knowledge or wisdom revealed, but for others so we are equipped when they aren’t, and above all for God’s glory. The Bible is brimming with His glory, and His love.

    What is motivating us to read the Bible I think determines what we take away from it. If we are reading more so for ourselves, then we are limited. But if we are reading while searching Him and desiring Him in our heart, things are open. And I’m guilty of this, it’s a personal question we have to ask ourselves inwardly.

    I’ve noticed when I try to make reading the Bible a routine it does not always work out, especially if going in order. When I read the book of Psalms constantly, I grew tired of it fast! I actually enjoy New Testament books a lot better for gaining new insight. Romans, Hebrews, 2 Peter, and more packed FULL of stuff we can take away, as well as be made aware of things we need to keep ourselves accountable to.

    Consider finding one verse to really focus on, memorize, and pray over. As others have suggested, devotionals are great 🙂 Consider how much time is given to God daily, and then how much time is given to other things. I noticed when my prayer life became more in-depth scripture opened up. When I have drawn to Him, He is drawn to me, but when I isolate myself from Him, His word, and prayer, I don’t tend to gain anything. Christ died for me, what more do I need Him to do for me. I have to step it up, not Him. That’s what convicted me.

    I’ve heard as a warning, and I agree, we are comfortable when we are doing what Satan wants us to do. We are uncomfortable when we doing what God wants us to do and Satan is against it. It’s easy to fall into the trap of being too comfortable not getting closer to God. I’ve seen this with my prayer life and reading scripture. I think there is a lot to be explored here 🙂 may you find desire to dip into His word and may insight be given.

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    1. “Consider finding one verse to really focus on, memorize, and pray over.” This what I do most times and it has helped me a lot. I understand how you feel. But this might help you because it helped me. T.R has pretty much said all I had to say. I appreciate your openness and readiness to be vulnerable. I’ll be praying for you.

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  24. Do you brush your teeth every day? Even when you don’t feel like it? Do you listen to your best friend talk even when you think you already know what he or she is going to say next? Do you eat food you know is good good for you even if it’s not really your favorite? Do you press on with habits of exercise or getting together with friends just because you know you need it?

    The Bible gives us a window into God’s perspective. When we read it we see how He feels about pride, bigotry, helping the needy, being honest, being truthful, being a hard worker, being smart and wise and prepared to do battle. The Bible tells us that God always initiates friendship with us. Before creation, the Bible says God already knew you and loved you and saw your separation from Him and planned to rescue you to die in your place so you can know his love and accept His offer to adopt you. Yes! ADOPT YOU! To as many as received Him He gave the right to become the CHILDREN OF GOD!!! He said CALL ME DAD!

    So, sometimes we do stuff just because we know it’s good for us. Sometimes we do stuff because it’s out of love for the people we care about. Spending time rehearsing what God said, listening to sermons from people that are growing in their faith, reading God’s Word is a way to defend your heart and mind from fake news. The culture we live in is opposed to God’s standards and values. When you are not filled up on God’s thinking you will become an easy target for mind control/brain washing from the enemy and how he thinks will influence and bleed into everything you think and how you analyse the issues going on around you and in this world. 1 Peter 5:8 says Be sober, be vigilant, your adversary, the Devil, as a roaring lion, walks about seeking whom he may devour.

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  25. I’ve been a Christian since I was a young girl, and my faith has changed and grown in various ways over the years. I have had seasons of digging deep into the Word and seasons of drought, where my Bible gathers dust. I often feel guilty about not reading my Bible more or not praying more or not going to church every single week or not being involved in a home group study. I’ve done those things faithfully before, and I know there is value in those activities; however, sometimes I wonder if the compulsion to do those things religiously can also be a hindrance. A church is not perfect, but the illusion of perfection can be paralyzing. The busyness of being involved in church activities can surround us with likeminded people, but it can also isolate us from the very people we are supposed to be salt and light to. I love God. I love worshiping Him and being fed by the Word, but I am not a perfect Christian. I think that’s okay.

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  26. Thanks for the post! Bible reading can be the biggest struggle for any Christian, what has helped me is this; before you read invite God to speak to you, to stir your passion, it’s perfectly ok to ask God for more passion and motivation. Next, just read something small, could be a few verses even, there’s no need to read a chapter a day, God just wants to have a relationship with you. After you read, write down what God is saying through that verse to you. Since you’re a writer, you may find as I have that God speaks clearest through writing. Ask God a question and put your pen to the paper, his answer will come. Lastly I just want to say that God isn’t punishing you, Jesus paid the price that covered everything, he was enough. Church is great for fellowship and guidance…though I believe it is vital for us to have a relationship with other Christians, “church” can truly be just you and your wife praying together, you are the church. The building is just the place where the church gathers. God hasn’t left you, and He has so much to tell you. Hope this helps, God bless!

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  27. I was once like you. You’re actually in a better situation because you don’t feel the passion when reading the word of God. While me, I got disillusioned toward Christianity. I was seeking something else, a higher revelation you could say. I wanted more, more than what’s being preached at church which is the surface of scripture. This lead me to the occult, to other religions because I was trying to fulfill that void that weren’t able to fulfill by the pulpit.

    Do things for God not because of merit, do it not because you are required to or expected to, but do it because you love Him. It will not come right away, it will be gradual. Remember when you first fall in love and you do things out of your heart, put it that way. Until then all will just be a ritual. This was actually the biggest thing that I learned from my Christian walk. When you get to that you will look at the word of God differently.

    As for the word of God there’s actually more to that but something that traditional preachers won’t touch. All you have to do is dig deeper. It is playing right in our face through technology, world events and supernatural. I’m not get through it because there’s too much to it. I’ll provide you a link below. All I ask is keep an open mind and verify it with the word of God. Remember the word of God is the sword of the spirit. A very essential weapon in spiritual warfare.

    http://www.canarycryradio.com/

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  28. Oh the valleys are hard. I don’t open mine everyday though I should. I don’t believe it makes me less of a Christian. I do believe however it distances myself from God. I don’t know it front to back. I may never. I still use the index. Most days I try to make sure I can reference a scripture in my blog post. When I can, it opens up a doorway for self reflection. I fully believe you will be drawn back. One thing our Pastor tells us is something I remind myself of often. You can’t wait for the feeling to come over you to do something. Especially in our spiritual walk. You do the action first, and then the feeling will come. It may not be immediately. But it will.

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  29. I too find i struggle with this, id rather scroll aimlessly through social media and blogs than read the Bible. But then sometimes my soul cries for feeding and i know the only fulfilment for that hunger will be his word. we are only flawed humans, we will miss the mark time and time again and sometimes the world is more appealing, thank God grace has our back xx

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  30. Actually I appreciate your words and truth in your platform. What have observed is that we all have out different ways to connect with God. It might be through reading the Bible, praise and worship, prayer, fasting, Thanksgiving and so on. I also forget mist days to read the Bible, but whenever am watching a sermon, am filled and fulfilled.

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  31. I have never read the Bible except for a few passages here and there. And I don’t consider myself a Christian, though I honor anyone’s beliefs which inspire them to be a better person every day, be it through Islam, Buddhism, Judaism, Druidism, Shamanism, etc. What I do believe is that we come from love, were created in love and will return to love after this time spent on Earth. We are all unique and at different stages of our personal journeys and it is for this reason I feel there is a need for so many different religions. So that each of us can find a place that fits us where we are right now on our spiritual journeys. Perhaps for you and others who feel so guilty for not reading the Bible every day, perhaps you can take this time for personal reflection. Perhaps the Bible readings you have studied up to now have given you everything you need for this particular stage of your life and it is time for you to trust yourself and your connection to God to carry you further. If God gave a part of Himself in order to create you does that not mean that God is within you and always with you? It might be as simple as removing the training wheels from your bicycle to show you how much you have grown. There may be a time that you will return to the Bible, as it has been such a comfort to you. But if that does not occur, you will not lose what you found within the holy book. Trust yourself and trust in your God to lead you forward in the most perfect way for you at this moment. You have read my blog and know that in my own way I have dedicated my life to service, just in a different way. Never doubt that you are loved, that you are connected and that you will never be alone.

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  32. Blessings,

    I read the 90 Bible reading plan each year, Genesis to Revelation; February to April; and have done so for the past 10 years. I used read from cover to cover, but it took me about 120 days to complete. The past 4 years I’ve been listening along to the audio version of the Bible; I will actually retain more that way. I also do a Bible Reading Plan once a month; within the YouVersion app! I’ve been in church all my life, but been a Christian for the past 35 years.

    Remember my brother. It’s not about how often, or how much you read; but that you enjoy to read! God doesn’t keep score, He just want us to be faithful; our hearts is what God truly desires… to see!

    Be Blessed!

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  33. I try to read a devotional reading and the Bible every morning. Sometimes, to change it up, I listen to the Bible on my commute into work. I find with my work, reading the Word before work is the calming reassurance that God is close with me during any challenge I might face.

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  34. Stephen, I thought a long time about what I might say in response to your post, and I find myself turning to Scripture. As I’m sure you know, so many times in the Psalms, David cried out to God, asking why He had hidden his face from David. I have felt like this periodically myself: a lack of connection to God and His words, as if there were nothing new to be learned from the familiar passages I was reading, dry as dust and uninspired. But I have always found to be true the promise in James 4:8: “Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you.” I encourage you to keep pressing on, perhaps reading along with Scripture the writings of great men of God (J. I. Packer, C.S. Lewis, Jonathan Edwards) to stir your heart and soul once again. And that’s enough sermonizing from me. 🙂 Praying for you.

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  35. I am not a Christian and I “rate” your honesty. Would that all people, whatever their faith, were so open. I follow zen Buddhism in which practice, not scripture, is the way. There are moments here, of course… .

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  36. Current church series is the way which is what the early Christians called themselves. The pastor said the purpose of church is to meet with other believers to strengthen faith. It doesn’t have to be a formal building but a community of people. Perhaps your blog serves this purpose. I go almost every week and during the school year twice on sundays because our youth church is fantastical. I rarely read the Bible. Some of it is just plain boring and requires too much concentration. After 14 years at this church I have enough key verses memorized that comfort in times of crises so I think I’m good. Of course when I stand before Jesus one day it will be a whole different story. However this is my story so I will own it. Peace. Love your blogs!!

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  37. Your honesty is refreshing and your sense of humor is wonderful. During the earlier part of my Christian life, I used to find the Bible boring. Everytime I try to read it I would fall asleep. However, a few years ago I rededicated my life to God and He restored the plan He had for me. My entire life is now focus on God’s Word. No, I have never read the entire Bible and I don’t intend to. Why? I believe God’s Word is too precious to rush. I prefer to savor it a little at a time until He calls me home. The Lord inspired me to write a book based on my testimony and lessons from the Bible. I believe this book will bring a fresh desire to read the Bible. I hope that you and your readers will be able to get a copy. Here is the link: https://www.amazon.com/Harm-Not-Wine-Beverley-Wright/dp/1518743587/

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  38. I really appreciate your honesty. There have been times where I have felt like I wasn’t “getting anything” from reading the Bible. More often than not, if I kept at it, something would surface. I think, looking back, the Lord may have been trying to teach me perseverance, humility, and exactly what repentance mean {I’m still not 100% clear on these because I am always, always learning} 🙂 And then there are other times too where every word I read was like a lightning bolt to my heart and it all meant something so heavy and important. During those times, I think He was helping bolster me for something to come. I can see it clearly now, of course, but during those dry times I was confused as to why I felt like He had pulled away when I hadn’t changed anything {though if I’m going to be honest, I had changed – my heart wasn’t right}. So, I guess all this to say, you’re not alone in this. He’s got you and He’s right there in your fractured faith with you. And the rest of us are here too – we can sit with you in this.

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  39. Take this… I am a Christian, refuse to leave church and don’t know most of the bible (still). So yeah I guess you’re a good Christian despite a dusty Bible. Don’t worry about it too much. You know a great deal from it and you live by it. In my eyes that still makes for a good Christian, especially in the times we live in today with all the stuff taking all our attention like tv. work and good literature.

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  40. I wonder if the question may have been answered in your writing. I have a post “To Those Who Have Been Hurt By The Church” that I wrote because so many have been struggling with God because of what the church is doing. I wonder if it’s not the Bible that you are struggling with, but God. After all, it’s His Word right? So when I struggle to read it, I ask myself, “What am I not wanting to hear you say? What am I avoiding? What answer don’t I want or am I afraid will be different from what I am actually doing with my life?” I search my heart because usually it means, like a lover I don’t want to hear, He is trying to say something to me that I don’t want to hear. I pray that as the writers here work through your fractured faith (as so many of us have) that you continue to bless the folks reading the posts. This was real and honest and I loved being able to read honesty about this. Because the truth is MANY who will sit in church Sunday haven’t opened their Bible outside of the building in years! So above all, even with what I shared above, know that you aren’t alone. There are many with you and we all just have to push through.

    If you’re interested in reading the post I mentioned, which is truly my heart to all who have been hurt by the church, it’s here: https://eyesstraightahead.wordpress.com/2017/12/10/when-the-church-has-hurt-you/

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  41. Many believers struggle with consistency in spiritual disciplines, myself included. But if there is anything I have learned is that spiritual stagnation happens when we sever ties from God’s Word and His Bride. We’re told not to give up meeting together as some are in the habit of doing. We’re called the hands and feet of Christ; what good is a severed arm to anyone? I’ve heard it’s like someone walking up to a man and saying, hey, you’re pretty great, but your wife is a%~$@&# ! What man would tolerate that sort of comment without punching that individual in the nose for deriding his bride? Should we not expect Christ to be just as loving of his unworthy bride, the Church, as we are of our earthly spouses? One of the biggest lies Satan has sneaked into society is that the church is an organization or a tax-exempt business. The Church is the universal body of Christ followers. Christians are the Church! Christians are the Bride of Christ. To sever oneself from the Church is to be severed from the Body, and distanced from Christ. There’s likely a struggling church full of various components of the Body, yet just waiting for someone to come be a set of eyes, or ears, or hands, or feet. I would encourage you to get involved in a local church, because church politics, hateful members, past disappointments and factions aside, we’ll all be held accountable for our faithfulness, and far be it from me to be one of the people saying, “Jesus, I thought you were wonderful, but your Bride is *bleep!*” I shan’t expect Christ to abide that remark about the Church he died to save. (Ezekiel 20:44)
    In regards to the Bible, I believe it is the Holy, inspired, inerrant, infallible Word of God. As such it is the primary means through which we hear from God. If we aren’t hearing, there are two things we can make of the silence: 1) there’s unconfessed sin in our lives drawing us out of fellowship with God. Confess, repent, and pray for the Holy Spirit to speak life into our time of reading and study. (1 John 1:9) 2) we’re going in to studying God’s word with the wrong intent and coming up empty when our passions or feelings aren’t being stirred. The truth is, Christianity is as intellectual as it is emotional, maybe more so. Because when we need our God the most is when we’re feeling bored with it; that opens up room for Satan to distract, discourage, and destroy our witness to Christ. Honestly, A Christian cut off from God, His word, and the Church is no real threat to Satan, and no real asset to the Kingdom. (Revelation 3:16)

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  42. Oh my gosh, I can’t believe I am not alone in this! This is exactly what I have been going through for over a year. I just can’t “see” the Bible when i am reading it, it is all words that carry no more meaning to me. I have seen them over and over again and can’t wrap my head around it. It gets boring and frustrating so I just barely read a verse and hang onto it hoping it is enough. Thank you for posting things., Man, it’s good to see so much honesty from a Christian about this. Advice like “you just have to do it” isn’t helpful. I don’t want to read the Bible if I must force myself to. It isn’t authentic then.

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  43. I would like to encourage you to look at the Bible from a different perspective. Instead of reading scripture as a duty, Seek to know Jesus Christ more intimately through scripture.

    I am not speaking of knowledge of scripture, but a growing understanding of Him.
    Christian is not what we are called to be. We are called to be disciples (learners) of Him.

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  44. “Can you still continue to function as a card carrying Christian without a church and without a Bible?”

    To my knowledge, Jesus himself didn’t carry around a book of scriptures with him during his ministry, but drew strength from steadfast prayer with His Father daily, nightly, whenever he could. This — prayer — is where I see the invitation to relationship with God. I am one too who once quit a promising job to go to Colombia so I could delve into the bible and spend a few months reading it, cover to cover. So I know its power, but it is the Word of God, inscribed on our hearts as well; and it lives and breathes (eternally) so we can know it solely through prayer too.

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  45. Hi! I love this article and I hope I could also share my experience on this one. I feel you. There will always be a stage in our lives were, we feel ‘dry’. Its pretty much like you have your special someone for too long and you get to a stage were all seem familiar. It’s not about the concern of sin. We must accept that the narrow path is boring which is why people choose the other way, sinful road–where a lot of entertaining scenes or interest pique. I am hoping that even when you do not have time to read, you still have time to talk to Jesus–Jesus is the meat or the core. God Bless.

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  46. Whoosh. I love and respect your honesty. Not read much of your blog yet but feel you and I may be coming from a very similar place. You’ve helped me decide to relaunch a blog of mine – Down to Earth God. Easter Sunday seems a good time to resurrect it. On the bible thing. There’s many read it but abuse it to judge and condemn others. Christ came to live the gospel not quote the rules at people. Maybe for now you need to dwell and live out such of it as is already in your heart.

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  47. Love this…having tried to fit in with the ‘rules’ proclaimed by the organized church for years I now have the freedom to read or not read without guilt or condemnation….we are His, and we live, move, and have our very being in Him…the same power that raised Him from the dead dwells in us….love your sense of freedom to give yourself permission…it for freedom He has set us free!!

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  48. I have read the Bible from cover to cover a couple of times in the past and this is my third year in a row of reading it cover to cover. I sure wish my mind could remember what I read. I am sure that some sticks but. . .

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  49. My own journey was resonated in your words many times over. I have walked through the fire with my faith, had dry spells, struggles with “church” (husband and I walked away from ministry 4 years ago after 15 years) and just plain felt burnt out. I still love my Lord and cling to Him. He is my rock but there are times we all just need rest in Him. I haven’t hardly read my Bible in the last several years but I have hidden His word in my heart as I’m sure you have too. It’s more than just a head knowledge, it becomes a very part of you being. The Holy Spirit also teaches us if we slow down long enough to listen. His creation, His handiwork, His love can be enough sometimes. Take this time to just absorb that to your core. 🙂

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  50. I was afraid this would happen, I should not have been so bold. I am truely sorry you feel judged and critisized. As I said in my comments, I was truthfully only offering my thoughts as view points to consider if you had not already done so. And I also admitted that perhaps I was only projecting as the things I suggested are things I am guilty of myself. I thought you asked your readers for our thoughts because you were interested in honest alternative views to your own. If I had known that you would see those alternative views as judgment and critisim I would never have shared mine with you. Although I guess I had an inkling, or I wouldn’t have closed my comments by trying to assure you, to no avail evidently, that I was not critisizing or judging you. However, I am very sorry that I’ve offended you. I hope you will forgive me.

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  51. I can’t say I’m religious in any commonly accepted sense but I can relate to many of the ideas in this post. I like to think that understand was originally stand under. I definitely stand under this awesome experience of being. And I recognise my need for a belief system, to have faith in something. In fact, I reckon everyone has faith with a small f , even if sun-consciously or even unconsciously, otherwise they wouldn’t fight so hard to survive or even get out of bed. So, yes, I appreciate anyone who can believe and doubt and learn and admit faith. If your God is Mother Nature… like, okay, if its a book or setplay or dogma, nosir. 🙂

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  52. Honestly? I dont read the bible. Never have, probably never will. I am a catholic, but not practicing. Religion played a huge part in my abuse so my faith is very shaken right now. xo

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  53. I stress myself out about my consistency with reading the Bible. I find it hard to read the bible every day but I have found some resources such as Skip The Stress and also doing prayer journals to keep me going. I even try to put it on my to-do list. I know what you mean about that spark and sometimes I get it and sometimes I don’t. Sometimes my focus is just so out of whack that I am just reading and not comprehending. I guess for me I gotta keep reading. I feel better knowing that I took time out of my day and gave it to God. That’s pretty much it.

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  54. I so appreciate your honesty. Like you, I have been through times when I could barely read my Bible. I didn’t want to, and I couldn’t even pray. One time I was just so overwhelmed and steeped in legalism. Couldn’t keep up with the Christians who kept perfectly tidy homes. I think in a way I was like Mary trying to compete with Martha. Every time I opened my Bible it condemned me. Then the pastors at my church started talking about grace. In a way I can’t completely put into words, God honored those messages.

    What I have discovered is that reading the Bible doesn’t earn you any points with God. If the words don’t give you life, then there’s something in the way. When nothing in the Bible is speaking to me, I pray about it, sometimes cry about it, and try to remember to give thanks – because prayer can become so rote if it’s all about a list of requests I want from God. Then all you have is dry religion.

    If you feel like you have to read your Bible, then something is wrong. Perhaps it’s the absence of the Holy Spirit, given by Jesus to lead us into all truth.

    In the first chapter of Acts, before Jesus ascended into heaven he told his disciples to wait for the outpouring.

    So they gathered together and waited. Sometimes I think we need to wait on God.

    And yes, I think it’s important to continue to meet with other believers, but it doesn’t have to be in a church building or with a large congregation. For “Where two or three are gathered in my name, I am with them,” Jesus said. Even a forum like this helps believers connect. It’s almost like a Bible study, in fact. There are no limits as to how believers can meet because it’s all about God’s grace.

    Anyhow, those are just a few thoughts. I could make a whole sermon out of this, lol. Thanks again for your honesty.

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  55. Hi Stephen

    This is probably not going to win me many brownie points (though you seem to have a much kinder readership than many!), but I don’t think you need to feel guilty. The Bible is not God; it is a signpost to God; it is the stories of many people in their struggles to understand God. And it is is invaluable in that regard. But it is not God. By putting the Bible aside for a while, you are not dismissing God.

    I suspect that a lot of the times when people struggle with the Bible it is because they are feeling the burden of trying to defend a flawed perception of it – even if only to themselves. If you engage with the Bible on its own terms, allowing the writers their failings and their blindspots instead of trying to reconcile those with a doctrine of complete inerrancy, it becomes much less onerous to read it. What I think is that the weariness is often the result of persisting in the way we read the Bible rather than in reading it per se. The hermeneutc, not the text is the source of the problem.

    As I said, that may well go down like a herd of turtles, and might elicit a host of angry responses, but I offer it because I think a different perspective might bring some relief. If you are a reader, Dr Peter Enns’ book “The Bible Tells Me So” is an easy read and enormously helpful starting point for opening ways of thinking about the Bible. Otherwise, his lecture https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHU6eIlhWOk&t=14s is a reasonable summary. If the Bible isn’t working for you, there are a lot of really great youtube videos, which have really helped me shape my thinking. I would look up Michael Hardin, Brad Jersak, Brian Zahnd and N.T. Wright. Even if you don’t fully agree with them on every point, they are deeply learned and offer a lot to think about.

    I really hope that is helpful (and not too preachy)

    Peace
    Peter

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  56. Good read. Thanks for the honesty. I’ve been a church goer/Christian all my life (41 years), and I go through seasons where I read the Bible a lot and some where I hardly look at it. I lean more on the “I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you”(ps. 119:11) idea. Anymore I use it more as a reference, so I can validate scripturally what I hear the Holy Spirit speaking. My $.02.

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  57. I’d describe myself as an atheist, except I don’t want to belong to a club. So let’s just say, I’m a non-believer. Despite being a non-believer since I was about ten years old, I have read most of the Bible, out of curiosity and because I am a student of literature and regardless of whether I believe in its origins, it’s still a significant work of literature.

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  58. My Bible is the NIV. I haven’t read it in probably 2 months since my mom died. The last scripture I read to her was Psalm 91, When I finished reading it to her she breathed her last. I feel very lost right now

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  59. You are placing yourself at risk by distancing yourself from God’s Word. You should know better. It is not God’s job to entertain you. God uses the Bible to renew our minds, to conform our thinking to His in the most profound and positive sense.

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  60. I read in spurts. In fact, just reading the Bible again does almost nothing for me. Sometimes, when I need something, I’ll do an intense study. I have had to study topics like forgiveness, divorce, prayer, and others. Usually, after digging into the Greek or Hebrew (through Strong’s, I don’t really know the languages, but the book helps me get deeper.) I realize that the standard American interpretation is flawed. Other times, something will grab hold of me. I must have spent 5-10 years researching Genesis to Deuteronomy. So many people think you must read every day, but just read in a way that reinforces the interpretations they have been taught, never learning more, never digging for gold, and then act superior and try to make me feel inferior because I haven’t felt a need to read in the last few weeks. If you are walking powerfully with God, if you are growing steadily, learning more about the Bible, it doesn’t matter your method. Just never be legalistic and insist others use your method. Use what enables you to grow in Godliness.

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  61. Please, forgive me. My earlier comment was not intended to sound harsh or judgmental. It was prompted only by concern for your spiritual welfare. We all go through the wilderness experience, when God is silent and our faith feels dry. But the wilderness is not a punishment from God. It reveals where there is room for growth; strengthens our resolve; and — if we continue to seek Him out — teaches us not to rely on our own strength. Be blessed. ❤

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  62. For me, reading my Jesus Calling devotional and getting into scripture first thing in the morning gets me moving and energized. I feel like The Lord prepares me for my day. Whether the day has turned out good or not, I thank Him for the opportunity to just “be” in the day. The hardest thing I find sometimes though, is “being still”. My mind wants to wander, but then I bring it back to the Word. I hope you will pray and ask The Lord to put a certain word in your heart that will draw you back into His holy Word. God Bless!

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  63. I imagine the Book of the Law was very dusty when Hilkiah the priest found it buried among the rubble in the temple. He took it to the king, who read it aloud to all the people. It had a great effect.

    The Spirit will nudge you to pick it up again, no matter how long the dust collects. And when He does, it’ll speak to you.

    When I’m uninspired I open mine and ask, “What is it that You want me to notice about You?”

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  64. I think it’s normal to have a lull in faith. In time you might be inspired to once again crack any one of those bible copies open. Even if it takes another 10 years. May be next year. The question is — do you pray? This form of communication is what I believe to be more important an act than reading the bible. God bless to you. Thanks for visiting and liking Good Friday.

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  65. thanks for liking my post, led me to this suggested post of yours and wow… literally, yesterday I was telling my husband about a random tweet I saw the day before how so many christians don’t pick up their bible but watch 5 hrs of tv everyday. That tweet may have been meant to rebuke or encourage but I felt condemnation. I too love God, and have my walk with Him but not having read my bible like I use to and mean to but am going through frustrations of what I came out of (church) and all the other different interpretations from the same verse, it makes me not even want to read it now. Though I do want to, I just need to gently get back into it. Anyway, I would rather someone tweet something that draws you into wanting to study the word, right? Boy. I had too much of my “not feeling good enough” at church and now God is healing me with his grace and love, its about Him, not me. Having the word in my heart and mind from all these years gives me spiritual nourishment too. So, this post, I have been looking at mine on the shelf too, but no spark to read it like I used to. I think we all go through that. I actually am in a recovery group at a church that I am reading alot of scripture in the books that go along with it.

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  66. I listen to what the Holy Spirit tells me first and foremost. I’ve been a Christian for many years and I don’t let the RULES of Religion get me down. I finally found my True Church and I’m happy. I’m NOT perfect and I fail in saying my prayers and reading my Bible, I even SIN! No surprise there. BUT, I always Repent and beg Forgiveness. I also say breath prayers and have an Attitude of prayer to Help me most of the time. When I don’t, I go through a time of self study and confession with my Father and get back on track. I do read other books of faith. Oh, and I use a Bible App nowadays which makes it so much easier. Maybe you can get the Bible on Kindle?

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  67. We’ve all felt like this at different times. First we want to but can’t seem to connect, then gradually that feeling goes dull and the guilt floats in a bubble away from us.

    Talk to the Holy Spirit about it.
    Listen to music.
    Remind yourself of why you are banking your life on the fact that Jesus is real.

    Those are tips that worked for me.

    Thanks for the honest post.

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  68. Steven, I get it. Reading the Bible can easily become a routine or something you just do because you are supposed to. And the same goes for the church. Too many just are going through the motions, again, because we are supposed to.

    Don’t get me wrong, we are supposed to…on both accounts, but that is looking at it backwards. Our response of faith ought to be that we attend to God’s word and we gather with other believers to worship him. Then again, lots of professing Christians don’t get that.

    As to the Bible thing, as a Christian Pastor, I’ll be honest, I also don’t like just reading the Bible to read the Bible. It’s not me, it never really has been. As a pastor, I often do read the Bible cover to cover in a year to encourage and aide others in their reading, but that isn’t me… But, what I love is translating a couple verses at a time and reflecting deeply on them…much of which ends up in my blog, but that is me. And hey, you don’t need to be a pastor to learn Greek and Hebrew…I have taught the basics of it to a few brave souls in my own congregation, the more the merrier, in my opinion, that way they can keep me honest in my own Biblical teaching. I also like word studies (looking at how a Greek or Hebrew word is used throughout the Bible…those don’t usually end up in my blog, those are for me mostly. My point is just because you don’t fit the conventional model, figure out a model that works for you. Maybe look for all teh Biblical allusions in a favoite book. Just a thought.

    As to the church thing…the thing is, if you are a genuine Christian, you are a member of the church…the key is just finding a local expression of the church that you can plug into…it is good for your soul even if you have been burned out on the way church is oftentimes done. Something to chew on at least.

    Thanks for stopping by my little spot on the web and many blessings to you as you work through your place in this world.

    in Christ… Win

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  69. I feel you on this! I’m in a similar state. An imperfect Christian (aren’t we all?) striving for honesty. And man is it hard sometimes, especially when publicly talking about the ways we fall short. Thank you for sharing! I enjoyed reading this.

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  70. I am 78 years old and have been through it all. Read Psalm 42. It is David’s heart and soul talking to “eachother” ~ his emotions and his logic. He talks about being far from God, then says, “Be still my soul. You will yet worship”. It is repeated several times. During these dry periods, do not rely on your emotions. They are fickle. Sometimes they depend on your body chemistry. Don’t let your body chemistry be your guide. As for “church” you do know what Hebrews 10:25 says. If you are not comfortable anywhere, start a “church” in your livingroom. You need this. Church is our oasis. Nearly everyone who attends is struggling with some problem that they don’t talk about. When we see each other and ask, “How are you,” we smile and say “fine, thank you” when we’re not fine. But it’s our oasis. With a church family we come together in our desert and smile at each other. It lifts us up and carries us for a while while we go home to the reality of our doubts. Oh, and don’t forget Acts 20, the first few verses. Look up in your concordance or Vine’s Exposition of New Testament (from specific Greek words) and see what “met” and “first” and :to” and “break” and “bread.” You need to take the communion every Sunday, using I Corinthians 11 as your guide, even if you do it at home alone. Make yourself do it. The first time you will feel foolish, but the second time will be different. It will make you feel warm and thankful. If you want to talk some more, my email is katheryn@inspirationsbykatheryn.com

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  71. My son’s at a Catholic college here in the States. You know Catholics are notoriously bad at reading the Bible. But, Last year for Lent, I got an email from the school suggesting I read the Gospel every day in an email. So, I signed up. Lent ended and I was pretty please with myself. Then Easter Monday came, and I got another email. So I read it. It wasn’t just for Lent. I signed up for a daily Gospel reading. More than a year later, I am still doing it. Kind of got duped into doing it, but, I have to say, I do like that fact that I have been reading consistently.

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  72. Reblogged this on Weekly Sabbath Survey and commented:
    You ‘liked’ my post “Three Circles.” I never read what people leave for me or things they have posted. Too time consuming. But today I was led by the Lord (I ‘honestly’ believe) to read this from you. I am very much into honesty myself. If we are faking it, then we are dead in the water, going nowhere. I have a concern for you. I have been where you are, it’s a dry spell. But rather than go on and on here, if you want a dialog with me, please contact redhen1944@aol.com. I may be able to give you some pointers and help you get some clarity.

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  73. Commitment to prayer waxes and wanes. Even Mother Teresa had doubts. In my experience, like writing, sometimes taking a break eventually results in an even higher “attunement” to the benefits.

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  74. Thanks for your post and for being “honest”. I read the bible in spurts. When I was in the initial pain of an unwanted divorce I spent my days in the Psalms. They did help…a lot. I was trying just this month to read Leviticus and then Numbers…my head was spinning, I could not relate. I like to read short devotionals and yes there are days I skip those moments. I do spend much of my time talking with God. Have not found a home church since my husband/a used to be pastor left me. All that being said, even though I am not a regular church attender and limited bible reader, I still feel God loves me and has a direction for my life…and for you too:-)

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  75. I smiled when I saw the photo of the dusty bible, mine looked like that for years…I literally had to dust it every so often. I spent ten years away from attending a local body of believers not because I had turned my back on God, just new town and life. They steadily became the worst ten years of my life not because anything bad happened, but because I was so miserable. I needed closeness with the Lord and fellowship with the saints. I urge you to find a church that feels like home to you, one that you can be planted in and not just attend.
    Open your bible whether a physical or other line one, ask the Holy Spirit to renew your love for God”s word. We know God’s word will not return to Him empty but accomplish what it was sent out to do…in this instance that would be speaking life to you, bringing nourishment to your bones. Please stop starving yourself, feast, chew on, think on and digest the truth found in His Word.
    Praying for you to find a home church and a love for His Word…like can’t put it down kind of love.

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  76. I really appreciate your honesty. I am of the same camp: let’s be real. There is so much fakery in this world but who are we really fooling? We all know what we really think and how we really feel inside. But how many of us are willing to step up and tell the truth – whether we think it’s good or bad or we are proud or ashamed. Let’s bring it into the light – we all know who wants us to stay hidden and isolated in the dark…

    I have been a believer for 25 years now and have had many ups and downs in that time. Times I’ve read my bible, gone to church, quit reading my bible, quit the church, quit Christianity but never left God, came back. I’ve read my bible cover to cover maybe around 10 times now. I do still struggle greatly with some of its concepts, though, and probably always will. I have some pretty different brain wiring but that’s how He made me.

    Something I hang onto in the hard times is that I do still believe there is a God – even if I’m fed up with church, religion and my struggles with the bible – and he never lets me go. I am His sheep and no one can snatch me out of his hand.

    I still know his voice, even when I wander away and he always calls me back.

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  77. Your honesty is real and appreciated. We as believers often take side roads, but God always gets us to where He wants us to go if we continue to cling to Him. So, take your break but ask God to be at work in your heart to desire to spend time in His Word again. I know it is where we find Truth in a world that wants to confuse and mislead us. Dear brother, thank you for your honesty, and may your path be blessed, no matter what side roads you take! 🙂

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  78. I understand. I have read the Bible, I still meditate on verses for hope and inspiration, I enjoy other writings and I am not afraid to tell people my tradition is Christian but I do not attend church. I am not evangelical, if you like what you see and hear in me, then we can talk for hours about faith.

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  79. The more I read on this blog, the more I love it!

    No, I don’t read the Bible regularly, even though I do have Faith. I call it God, some people call it Buddha… whatever it is I have faith in a Higher Power. I do. With all my heart.

    Have you seen the movie Dogma? Aside from being hilarious there’s a quote at the end between the 13th Apostle (haha) and the Last Sion that goes mostly like this…
    Rufus: so, do you believe? Now that you know the truth?
    Bethany: No… but I have a good idea.
    In the movie she’s actually met God bu that stage.
    As Selma Hayek’s character says:
    It’s not important what your faith is in, just that you HAVE faith.
    She’s Serendipity by the way, a muse from Heaven. It’s pure irreverent fun from start to finish.

    Honestly, I am responding to your searching. It touched a note. Am I a Christian in every sense of the word? Depends what words you read I guess!

    – Bonnie

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    1. Thanks Bonnie. I’m glad the post got you thinking. It’s had a big response so I think it struck a nerve with a lot of people. I’ve heard of that movie but haven’t seen it. I’ll have to check it out 🙏🏻🙂

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  80. HI Stephan, I’m here because you liked my blog post on silence is a verb. I too like to be authentic and real as a Christian on a journey of doubt, faith, struggle, pain, joy blah blah!!. I have grown up in the faith, ran and still running from religion which narrows things down and yet I still find myself serving the body as a Worship Leader. These are strange spiritual times we live in……..there is a real struggle and spiritual war going on for Christians. Too many voices, egos not enough servant leaders! So what to do….where two or three gather? Do not forsake the assembling together? Yep we were created for community life to do it together warts and all!! But……I’m struggling myself with it all again! Including reading the word. I’ve signed up with a couple of apps for now to get the word in….listen & prosper, in touch ministries and my favourite is doreenvirtue who was a famous new ager, medium, tarot card reader who just became a born again Christian and is doing bible reading’s live! Instead of tarot. Lol! Isn’t that awesome?!. She is on fire and I need lighting up. So as you can hear I haven’t given up entirely on my faith I’ve just had to reboot and rewire towards something authentic. I feel it’s worldwide and the enemy is targeting Christians. Time is running out. Stay true stay strong in Him his grace is sufficient for you. You belong to God. Nothing can steal you away however we can strengthen ourselves with the word. The word is a person…in the beginning was the word. So I guess I’m saying just hang in there and let’s drop the “shoulds” which I read in many posts and let’s not fall into condemnation but love the giver of life and respond accordingly. Be led by the Spirit not by the flesh. There…..my two cents worth! Ha ha. Bless your journey.

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  81. O mine! What a Day! From whence comes thou into my life? What a wonder! The wind is rile up. Wonder what it’s the cause of its riling, but! No wonder as the cause of my former life’s riling ups!

    And visiting your blog? How refreshing! And reading some of the comments? O well! No wonder anymore as to the cause of our rile up lives–not just lack of true love, but! The program in our minds!

    Me? Quite a while it took for the Creator to deprogram me. But to see how He is doing with you? It’s simply joy inexplicable. It takes someone to experience the results to understand another going through the process. So glad you visited me. So glad I visited you. Much love, thiaBasilia. 🙂

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  82. I’m a Christian who has gone for weeks without reading the Bible too. That doesn’t include hearing it in church (I’m an Anglican and it’s read every Sunday). For one thing, I think I am still benefiting from having read it over and over in the 34 years since being saved. In fact, I think I am still benefiting from a time about 30 years ago when I read the New Testament straight through 4 times without making notes. But for now I need to avoid reading it as a substitute for “living it.” I am reaping great benefits from times of silence and solitude with God (when I can get it, with a wife and two kids running around). What good is “knowing” (in the shallow, modern sense) scripture if I am just as impatient and selfish as I was a year ago?

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  83. I like to study topics. For example, I might search for everything the Bible says about “prayer” or “love” or “Peter” or any topic I’m interested in at the time. It almost always turns out to be very interesting and insightful. You can also search the Bible for all the verses about a certain person, like David, Joseph, or Samson. Recently, I have searched the Scriptures to understand why David was “a man after God’s own heart”. It has been very good and I can easily apply it to my own life. Listening to good Bible teachers also inspires me to search out the Scripture for myself. Pray and ask the Lord to give you a greater desire to study his Word. I guarantee you that He will. God bless you Stephen!

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  84. I’ve recently fallen in love with reading the Bible again but I’ve also had times when it was more of a duty too. I take my hour with Jesus first thing no matter how I “feel”. That said, I don’t always read the Bible, sometimes I just pray, read over things Jesus told me in my old prophecy files or listen to an inspired teacher (Andrew Wommack and Gayle Urwin are favourites). Sometimes I just curl up in His arms, listen and meditate on Him.
    Perhaps you are seeking a more varied “diet”? It’s important to know the Bible intimately first to discern between other sources of inspiration, but God is not dead. He still speaks to us today and it’s wonderful when you get that connection and He pours out “new wine” especially for you! Hearing His voice in your heart, whether through the Bible, someone else, or direct to you is what makes life wonderful.
    When faced with crisis situations etc. it’s essential to know God’s word and exactly what you can claim to exercise His power. (Wommack is great on this). I find in times of trouble I get ravenously hungry for the Word, but day to day I find I need that time with Him, the world pumps depressing stuff hourly into our homes, if I want to stay full of joy I have to stay full of Jesus – John said, He is the Word, it’s hard to get your head around that, but it’s true.

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  85. My reading comes and goes in spurts. When it is sparse, it’s because I don’t make time. I get caught up in training, or mothering, or I skip the Bible for a novel. I can tell a difference when I’m running on “empty” I like devotionals int he Bible app on my phone, they are great, but sometimes they can be a quick fix when I know I need more. Really, it just comes down to me making time. And I’m a Bible reader that camps out in one chapter or one verse for DAYS at a time, journaling about, thinking about, until I move on. I think all of us struggle with this. We are humans.

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  86. I am a Christian by birth, have been non-practising for at least four decades and I have never read more than a few chapters from the Bible. I don’t read books of other faiths either though I once attended a Zen master in Taipei. I guess the values and rules I live my life by stem from the Christian culture in which I was brought up though I am more Buddhist at heart.

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  87. Such honesty. Sometimes I wish we could order “Desire”. I have been a follower of Jesus almost 50 years. I struggle more in wandering away from desiring a closeness with Jesus. I get side tracked so easily. My key passage is Hebrews 12:1-2. I keep my eyes on Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith.
    Thanks again, you sparked a lot of conversation with your honesty. It shows where we as people are at. Have you ever read Brother Lawrence “Practicing the Presence of God”?

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  88. I think my reading has covered all the main books of faith, but my answer will not, I fear, prove palatable to you. I am a complete and very contented atheist, happy to throw the switch when my moment comes with no expectation of a journey into light. I attach great importance to morality using a humanist perspective but somehow I cannot get around the evil that religions have visited upon the world, and the damage they can do to men’s minds. Sorry! Not the sort of comment you want to read, I guess, but honest.

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    1. No I appreciate your honesty and I agree with your thoughts largely with regards organised religion. I turned my back on the church due to the hypocrisy I saw within it. My writing is aimed at getting everyone thinking no matter what their belief system.

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