I Must Survive

There are days I feel a failure. A failure as a husband, father, son, colleague, runner, writer, you name it. Where it’s one step forward, ten steps back. Yet, here I am. Still hanging on. Surviving, somehow. Doing it for my family, for the people who believed in me when I was at my lowest ebb. To the people who I owe everything to, I have to keep going, to prevail, to survive. To prove the doubters wrong, to shut the haters up. I must survive.

Published by Fractured Faith Blog

We are Stephen and Fionnuala and this is our story. We live in Northern Ireland, have been married for 17 years and have three kids - Adam, Hannah and Rebecca. We hope that our story will inspire and encourage others. We have walked a rocky road yet here we are today, together and stronger than ever. We are far from perfect and our faith has been battered and bruised. But an untested faith is a pointless faith. Just as a fractured faith is better than none at all. We hope you enjoy the blog.

30 thoughts on “I Must Survive

  1. Stephen, you are a survivor. Whatever has brought you to the depths of this valley is merely another mountain to climb, a challenge to be conquered. Don’t know you personally, brother, but you’ve got my love standing with you.🙏

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  2. Nearly everyday I feel this way. In fact it’s the exception when I feel okay. You have been a friend who has stood by me through dark times.. I’m not sure if my opinion matters but you will prevail. You will not only survive, you will thrive. I believe in you. ❤️

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  3. When life is tough it is more important than ever to be gentle with yourself. You are far from alone in feeling such emotions. Hang in there you ARE a survivor, and more than this you are the candle that lights the way for so many. God bless.

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  4. Hi Stephen,
    I just blogged about how fear of failure and rejection has stopped me from taking advantage of opportunities. Trust me when I assure you that you are not alone in your feelings of self-doubt. I think it might just be the human condition. Emotions ebb and flow; emotions pass. Hang in there! You are an accomplished writer and it is obvious that you are much loved by your family, as well as your readers.


  5. Failures think about running but never lace up their shoes and hit the road. Much less run a marathon. Failures start writing but never finish the story. Let alone complete a novel and publish a book. Failures walk away from family when being a part of one gets tough. Failures complain about their leaders but never take a step in their shoes. You, my friend, are anything but a failure. You are more than a survivor. You are more than the sum of your accomplishments or shortcomings. You’re an amazing person with much more to accomplish. Press on, brother.

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  6. Do you know that the very fact you are writing this and sharing it has so much impact? And that is a HUGE positive in my eyes? how many people have the courage to share what you’re sharing. That’s not failure. That’s humility. Be kind to yourself!

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  7. Wow..so interesting. We all have days like this, days we feel as though we’re not exceeding as we should. BUT we have to be easy on ourself, we are only human. As a mother/father a parent we have to also practice self care, we just take care of our self as well so we can therefore be better for our families . Good luck and be strong !


  8. If there is a person on the planet who says they don’t relate, they are a liar.
    You got this. You can do it. God has given you the grace, yes? Be well, and keep fighting the good fight.


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