I Don’t Want To Face The World Today

It’s wet and wild outside and I don’t want to get up. Thankfully it’s Sunday so I don’t have to, well not yet anyway. I’m not budging, content to stay under the covers and write some words instead. It’s still dark, very dark, so I can’t see what is going on outside. But I can hear it, and that’s more than enough proof for me. The wind howling, the rain splattering off the bedroom window. That’s all I need to know.

The real world is a bit like that at the minute. Since finishing work on Friday I haven’t ventured out of the village. My only forays have been to the local shop for essential supplies. Chocolate, crisps. Stuff like that. I worked on my latest manuscript yesterday and, in the evening, watched a movie with Fionnuala and the girls – ‘Enola Holmes’ on Netflix: very good, by the way, should you have two hours to kill. The ‘real’ world can wait.

I’ve watched the news and been aware of what’s going on outside. President Trump is in hospital, infection rates in Northern Ireland remain worryingly high, the Covidiots still refuse to wear masks and follow basic health and safety instructions. It’s the same sad, tired, old story. Why on earth would anybody want to get out of bed for that? This pandemic has brought out the best in some people, as well as the very worst in others.

Monday will roll around soon enough. Another week at work, I’ll have no choice but to get up and venture into Belfast. I don’t particularly want to but the bills won’t pay themselves. I hope this week brings out the best in me and I have the patience and dignity to rise above the many things that anger and annoy me. If I bite my lip much more, it may well fall off. Until then, though, I’ll stay under the covers a little while longer.

Published by Fractured Faith Blog

We are Stephen and Fionnuala and this is our story. We live in Northern Ireland, have been married for 17 years and have three kids - Adam, Hannah and Rebecca. We hope that our story will inspire and encourage others. We have walked a rocky road yet here we are today, together and stronger than ever. We are far from perfect and our faith has been battered and bruised. But an untested faith is a pointless faith. Just as a fractured faith is better than none at all. We hope you enjoy the blog.

40 thoughts on “I Don’t Want To Face The World Today

  1. Having the same experience here on the other side of the world, Stephen and Fionnuala! Cool and rainy here in Michigan in the US. Enjoying some peaceful quiet with a large mug of coffee, and checking the news to see how the President is doing. Praying for all who are down with Covid-19, regardless of if they were being responsible or not when they got it. Being retired, the husband and I are able to mostly stay out of the public and crowds. In spite of all the negatives happening in the world, I see good things happening too. Blessings to your family!


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  2. I have had that feeling too. Staying in bed under the covers seems like the best decision to make…
    my boss at the NHS practice I work for would prefer it if I turned up for work though. Shame.


  3. I hear you, Stephen. It’s actually a beautiful day here. The sun is shining, which helps me slough off some of the depression that wants to kick my butt. I am fighting if off once again. I am grateful I have the tools to do so. Prayer helps a lot. But this pandemic really is wearing on a person. And when the weather is nasty it makes it all seem that much heavier. But, I keep telling myself, God IS in control, despite all the bad news and the coiviots as you call them. I think those people are so afraid of change and that may be at the base of it – or they just don’t care. Being a person who tries to believe in the goodness in humankind, I try not to think that – but I do, sometimes. Anyway, I hope your day brings sweet surprises to leaven out the bitter. Take care my friend.


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