Fighting OCD

Managing your mental health is a bit like herding cats; a nigh-on impossible task at times. Just when you think you’ve conquered the demons within, they squirm from your grasp liked an oiled pig. It’s a never-ending battle, day after day, hour after hour. Trench warfare where every hard-won yard can be lost again in the blink of an eye. It’s an exhausting, relentless grind and I’ve faced it head-on in recent weeks.

My OCD has been niggling at the fringes of my consciousness, snarling and snapping at my internal defences. I’m attributing the flare-up to a recent new role at work, where I’m feeling my away along, coming to terms with unfamiliar processes and procedures. It’s when I’m outside my comfort zone I’m at my most vulnerable, where obsessive thoughts and compulsive actions threaten to overwhelm me. The fear is back.

I’m fighting it and doing everything I can to regain the upper hand. I take my medication and share my anxieties with Fionnuala, the one person who truly understands me and what I go through. It’s a dip, a dark valley I have to traverse but I’m hopeful I can make it to the other side unscathed. I’ve done it before and I know I have what it takes to do it again. This blog post is part of the cathartic cleansing required to root the rancid remnants from within me.

If you’re struggling today and you’re reading this, then know that you’re not alone. The hidden monster can pounce at any time and none of us are immune to its waspish words. It’s okay to be not okay. A cliche, I know, but a rock-solid truth all the same. Your mental health is precious, never take it for granted. If you’re adrift and need help then don’t be too proud to ask for it. We all will one day. None of us can let our guard down.

Published by Fractured Faith Blog

We are Stephen and Fionnuala and this is our story. We live in Northern Ireland, have been married for 17 years and have three kids - Adam, Hannah and Rebecca. We hope that our story will inspire and encourage others. We have walked a rocky road yet here we are today, together and stronger than ever. We are far from perfect and our faith has been battered and bruised. But an untested faith is a pointless faith. Just as a fractured faith is better than none at all. We hope you enjoy the blog.

12 thoughts on “Fighting OCD

  1. Yes…mental health is a real issue in the present times…the problem is most peoole refuse to accept it as a health issue and hence resist taking professional help..
    Acceptance is the first step towards finding a cure .
    Stay blessed 🙏😇

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  2. Stephen, I don’t have OCD but I do have my struggles. Thank you for being vulnerable and strong enough to be honest about that vulnerability! That is what helps you and everyone else along the way. The more genuine and real we can be about mental health instead of hiding – the better we will all be. Praying this time passes quickly for you and the other side brings with it a deeper sense of understanding and well-being.

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  3. thank you for this. I don’t have OCD but I do have my share of struggles with mental illness. I opened the door just slightly and a wave of emotions just come barging in. I gave an inch and it took a mile. I’ve been off the blogging grid for quite some time now but am slowly finding my way back. I needed to read this post.

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  4. My monster is anxiety and due to the multiple moves and my husband’s death it has reared its ugly head and resulted in an assault of IBSD. I also am fighting and know I can do what I need but with one more move ahead it is a struggle. Only one week to go to my final destination. Thank God.

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